Mr. and Mrs. Darcy

I have just recently learned that I am not alone in my joys of engagement. As Jane, Kitty, and I ventured ahead on our walk earlier today, Mr. Darcy and Elizabeth lagged behind until they were alone. I knew the intentions of my  friend and was sure to usher the Bennet sisters forward in order to give them privacy. I have congratulated both Mr. Darcy and soon to be Mrs. Darcy already, and I could not be happier for my dear friend and his fiance. I'm sure Elizabeth's family, even Jane, will be quite surprised with their engagement, for I do not think any of them know of the previous intercourse between Mr. Darcy and Elizabeth.

I Finally Did It!

I spent the morning shooting foul with Mr. Bennet, and, much to my delight, I found him to be quite an agreeable man. I spent the day with the Bennets (Mr. Darcy has been on business in London) and I had the most pleasant dinner with the family. However, it was not until after tea in the parlor that I found time alone with Jane. I honestly had to restrain myself from laughing at how Mrs. Bennet called Jane's sisters out of the room, to leave Jane and I alone, and I am frankly thankful for her efforts. Out of my burning love for my dear Jane, I worked up the courage right there to propose for her, and received the wonderful response of her overjoyed acceptance of my proposal and elated dash from the room to tell her father. I am truly the happiest man on Earth, and I plan on spending every second I can with Jane, my true love.

Dinner Was Wonderful!

Mr. Darcy and I returned to Longbourn for dinner earlier tonight. The meal was wonderful, and I had such a frivolous time conversing with the many neighbors and friends that attended the dinner; however, my main focus of the evening was Jane. We sat near each other at dinner, and besides some slight uneasiness at first, we could not be separated the whole of the night. As we talked and talked, I realized that her feelings for me have not completely dissolved, as I had feared, and I am invigorated by the thought. I just don't believe I will be able to resist proposing for much longer, despite the fact I would like to make sure she wishes to be wed to me before I do so. The only detail I find strange is the mood in which Elizabeth seemed to be tonight; she seemed extremely absent and upset for some reason.

Infatuated By The Sight

After spending three days getting settled in Netherfield, and being called upon by various neighbors, Mr. Darcy and I thought it quite strange that we had not heard from the Bennets. Quite honestly, my nerves had been preventing my calling upon sweet Jane once again; it was not until earlier today that I was able to work up the courage to propose calling on Longbourn to Mr. Darcy. In fact, Mr. Darcy seemed to be in the same predicament with his feelings for Elizabeth; we have both been quite restless the last few days. Anyway, we called on the Bennets earlier today, and I have once again become infatuated by the mere sight of my dear Jane. Mrs. Bennet was as cheerful and friendly as I ever have seen her; however, she did seem quite cold in her conversation with Mr. Darcy. The best part of it all is that Mr. Darcy and I have been invited to dinner tomorrow evening, where we will further have the chance to pursue our individual loves!

Back to Netherfield

I am to depart for Netherfield with Mr. Darcy tomorrow morning. I cannot be sure as to the time of night right now; I know only that it is late and yet sleep is undoubtedly futile. My anticipation to once again see Jane, and my Netherfield estate, the scene of such amorous memories of us together, grows immensely every second. I fear that I shall burst far before I reach Hertfordshire! I am to see my love once more, and there is, for once, no reason to limit my feelings for her; I do not plan to let Jane slip away once more without making my proposal for marriage.

Darcy's Apology

Before Mr. Darcy left for London this morning, he settled, for me, a question that has been at my nerves for so long now. What brought him to the point of confession at such a time, I shall not know, but the ways of a mind so great as Mr. Darcys are not to be questioned. Before he left, Mr. Darcy sincerely apologized to me for his advision to quit Jane due to social status. He told me that he has learned much from his experiences with Elizabeth, and that he realized that he was wrong to restrict true love over such a trivial detail. It was the moment I had been waiting for for a long time, to know my good friend's opinion of my pursuing Jane once more, and it was at that exact moment that I decided upon my decisive return to Netherfield, .

Lydia Has Fallen Victim

Mr. Darcy conveyed to me this morning some quite distressing news, which necessitates Elizabeth, and her company's, premature return to Longbourn. It seems that Lydia, one of Jane's younger sisters, has run away with no other than Mr. Wickham! It is quite unfortunate too see one of such a wholesome family as the Bennets fall victim to the keniving unscrupulosity of such a vile man as Mr. Wickham. I do apologize for my temperament; however, I do find it hard to contain my disgust for the man, after what he has done to my dear friend. I am also afraid the Bennets will consider this misfortune a source of embarrassment; I completely understand the unfortunate circumstance and I feel the poor family does not deserve such distress. Anyway, Mr. Darcy has confided in me his plans to leave for London tomorrow in search for Lydia and Wickham. My desire to accompany Mr. Darcy is profound; however, he has requested that I look after his sister in his absence, and I plan to remain loyal to my good friend.

Reunion In Derbyshire

Upon arriving at Pemberly this morning, and after a quite exhausting and early journey from Ramsgate, I must add, Mr. Darcy expressed to the party, and especially to Miss. Darcy, his desire that we should all visit Miss. Elizabeth Bennet and her relatives, who had happened to be staying in Derbyshire by coincidence. Despite some weariness from the journey, I was eager to see the friend of mine who is so closely knit with Jane, and I, along with the whole of our group, immediately agreed to make the call the very afternoon of our arrival. We met Elizabeth, and Mr. and Mrs. Gardener, an uncle and aunt of hers, at the quaint inn not far from Pemberly, in which they were staying. The Gardeners seemed to be such kind and friendly people; I could not help but strike up a lengthy conversation with Mr. Gardner, who was quite a respectable man indeed. However, I must admit that my introduction to the Gardeners was not nearly as invigorating as my reunion with Elizabeth. It is truly striking how closely she resembles her sister, and my conversation with her led me to the involuntary remissnessance of such great memories at Netherfield. I longed to ask her more than I did about her family and Hertfordshire, yet I found such questions inappropriate in context, and so restrained myself from doing so. I do long to visit Netherfield once more.

We Muse Pursue Our Hearts' Desire

Caroline and I enjoyed our stay at Ramsgate, and I feel the visit has lifted Mr. Darcy's spirits to some extent; however, the stay has led me to a most significant revelation. As I observed Miss. Darcy, I found her to be an extraordinarily accomplished and beautiful young woman, however I also saw significant incompatibility between she and I. She does not enjoy the beauties of life, as Jane always did, and she is always so aggressive at her works; a life spent with her would be far too stressful for me to bear. Anyway, I have come to the realization that we must spend our lives with those who make us happy. We must marry for love, and not connections. I see now why Mr. Darcy was so compelled to propose to Elizabeth, and how he is just in doing so. And I see now that I cannot chose to spend my life with Miss. Darcy.

Polo

Earlier today Mr. Darcy and I engaged in a friendly match of polo at Ramsgate. It was my best attempt to lifting his spirits; I thought the fresh environment of Ramsgate, the presence of his sister, and an afternoon of friendly sports to be the perfect remedy to my friend's negative disposition. Unfortunately, however, Mr. Darcy seemed distracted the whole of the afternoon; the dear man tried to appreciate my efforts and enjoy the company, but it was of no use, I could see from a mile away that his mind was on Elizabeth. In fact, Mr Darcy, at one point, actually fell off his horse due to his absent-mindedness. Caroline immediately ran to his aid (She, Miss. Darcy, along with a few of her friends and the servants were observing from the sidelines); she began scolding and lashing the poor horse, to which Mr. Darcy paid little attention as he collected himself. I do worry about Caroline sometimes, she can be so vengeful.

He Only Wishes The Best For Me

I still cannot comprehend Mr. Darcy's feelings for Elizabeth. How could he peruse a girl of such a low status? Did he not advise me to the just the opposite? If Mr. Darcy thinks it appropriate to persue Elizabeth, why is it that I should not follow my love for Jane? Oh no, but it is because he expects me to marry Miss. Darcy; I know my good friend only wishes the best for me, but I just don't know If I can marry without love.

Support For My Good Friend

I was quite relieved upon receiving Mr. Darcy back from Rosings this past week. My lord, I have never seen the man in lower spirits. I should think this is the direct result of his rejection by Elizabeth; how could the man have become so obsessed with that girl? Regardless, we are to engage in a game of polo this afternoon; I am hoping to distract him from the topic of Elizabeth, and a bit of fun and high spirits will do him well. I intend to provide my good friend with the compassion and friendship he most desperately needs at his low hour.

A Sunday Well Spent

I have been in constant search of ways to occupy myself around Pemberly; one can only bend over a piano for so long. Mr. Darcy's Library is inconceivable in is size and diversity; upon returning home from mass Sunday morning I spent a quarter of an hour simply searching it's shelves for a book that looks interesting, and after finding no definitive end to the reference section, I quit the attempt. The weather outside was superb, and I could not resist the opportunity to spend the remainder of the day calling on Mr. Darcy's good neighbors and riding on horseback along the isle.

- Charles Bingly

There's No Place Like London

Last night I attended the most enjoyable reception of the Gentleman's Society of London. I found the opportunity to converse with more agreeable gentleman than I can remember; however, I had little time to prate, for the number of ravishing young ladies requesting my acquaintance was simply overwhelming. I danced until I found difficulty in standing, and yet there was something strangely unfulfilling about the endeavor. Regardless, the persona of the city is not comparable to that of any other place in England! Perhaps I should quit Netherfield, but I, for some reason, just cannot bring myself to do it.

- Charles Bingly

Alone at Pemberly

Mr. Darcy departed yesterday to visit his aunt in Huntsford, and I have been left alone to tend to Pemberly in his absence. My friend does have grand taste, but his estate is just too large and lonely for my taste. I never quite noticed how dark and silent the house is with both Caroline and Darcy gone. I do miss the fields and pastures of Netherfield, perhaps I shall return there for the summer. I will have to convince Caroline that Neterfield is not worth quitting; she is adamant that I should dispose of my lease on the property.

- Charles Bingly

Jane... No! It cannot work.

I found myself thinking, once again, of Jane as I made my return to Pemberly this afternoon. It was something about London's financial district that reminded me of her residence in the city; Gracechurch street is not five blocks from my offices. I do admit to my desire to visit her, to see her delicate visage once again, but no! Mr. Darcy and Caroline are right, there is no benefit in Jane's pursuit. It cannot work.

- Charles Bingly